Saturday, December 15, 2012

A letter to my Son


Dearest Kaelin,

When I first saw you, I instantly cried.  You were the most beautiful thing I ever laid my eyes on.  God created you perfect for me.  I could not believe that I had a part in creating something so wonderful.  As I cried, my first words to you was, “ hi Kaelin..I love you!”  I must have said I love you about 10 times, that was all I could really get out as the tears steadily rolled out my eyes.  As I held you in my arms for the first time, the feeling that came over me was nothing I have ever felt before, it was a proud and amazing feeling all in one.  God has truly blessed my life.  Everything I use to wonder and imagine about you, could never have compared to the day I actually met you.  You were better than what I could have ever imaged.  You were perfect!  God says in his word that he created us in His image.  Looking at you is proof that His word is true!  As I held you crying, your daddy came to hug us.  His arms around us, our first family hug was oh so wonderful!  God blessed me with an amazing King, and now a precious Prince.  I cannot see how life could get any better than this.

While I was holding you, you were so alert.  Our eyes connected, and the look you gave me, was like you knew you were in your mommy’s arms.  I loved you when before I even met you, but I fell in-love all over again the day I finally met you.  You were only about an hour old and you were lifting your little cone head up, trying to check out what was surrounding you.  As you tried staring around you, your eyes would slightly shake, for it was hard for you to focus.  I remember saying, “ look at him holding his head up already!”  I was clearly amazed.

There were many people waiting to meet you on your BIRTHday.  Of course your Nana, and grandma were there to welcome you when you first came out.  Papa was waiting off and on in the delivery room as well.  Your papa still had no clue what sex you would be, so he stayed out the room until your birth.  Not only because he did not know, but also because the labor probably would have made your poor papa sick..lol.  I was surprised your dad was able to handle my labor himself.  I just knew he was going to feel sick.  Boy was I wrong!  The waiting room was filled with people that could not wait to meet you.  They were your uncle Emmanuel, God dad, Great Grammy, Aunt TaNisha, Aunt T.J, Uncle Mike, Cousin Megan, Auntie Teresa and Will.  The first thing everyone commented on, including the hospital staff, was about your head full of hair.  Everyone was astonished about the full head of hair you had.  Your God dad was the first to notice that you had big hands.  Everyone agreed on how beautiful you are.  You brought a smile to everyone that entered the room.

My favorite memory from the day of delivery is when you were first put into my arms.  I waited almost 10 months for that moment, and dreamed about how it would actually be.  To finally be able to hold you in my arms was so surreal.  With all the emotions I felt, I mostly felt blessed to receive such a special gift from God.  Everything that I had experienced throughout the last 39 weeks..the five hour labor, the back pain, the stretch marks, the 28 pounds I gained, you kicking me at night, was all worth it!  I would not trade any of it for anything!

Kaelin, I have been waiting for you to be in my life forever!  I always dreamed of the day I would become a mommy.  You made that dream become a reality, and it is one of the most amazing feelings in the world.  I know as you grow, and get older, you will never remember the day you were born, however; I will!  I will never forget how those eyes connected with mine, and how you brought tears of joy to my eyes.  I promise you to always be the best mommy I can be.  By raising you in the word, teaching you right, showing you love, and always being there whenever you need me.  I am sure there will be many times you get mad at me, especially when I punish you.  Just know it will all be because I love you.  Everything I do in life, will always be for you.  Thank you for making me such a proud mommy!
I love you Kaelin, never forget that!  

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