A letter to my unborn child

Dearest little Baby Alexander,

When I picture you being formed inside my womb, I start imagining all sorts of things.  It is an exciting feeling and scary feeling, all at once.  I think about if you will be a boy or a girl.  If you are a girl will you have mommy’s slanted eyes, or daddy’s ears?  If you are a boy will you have daddy’s lips, and mommy’s genetics of height?  The majority of the men on my mom’s side is 6’ 3 or taller.  So I wonder if you are a boy will you be that tall as well.  There are many things I have been pondering, and I cannot get the answers to any of them for a while.  It is a scary feeling that I cannot see you, to know if you are alright, and if you are not alright, there is not much mommy could really do at the moment.  All I can do is trust that God is protecting you in me, and that HE has it all under control. 

I have always wanted to be a mommy.  Being a mother one day, was at the top of my to-do list after marriage.  I think every woman dreams of one day-becoming a mother.  God blessed me to have that dream come true.  You will always be one of the most important people in my life.  I will do my best to protect you, and raise you the way our heavenly Father says in His word.  I had amazing parents growing up, and I always learn from the best!

God hears your heartbeat, and I wish I could too.  At our first ultrasound, I almost cried when I saw you on the screen.  The nurse showed us your heart beating, and all I could do was smile and wish I could hear it too.  When I first heard your heartbeat, I instantly smiled again.  You are always having me smile!  It was strange when I first heard the sound.  I was waiting to hear a thump like how my heart sounds.  The sound was a tad different.  The doctor said, “There is that heart beat!”  I said, “ Oh wow! That’s the sound?”  It sounded as if you were gasping for air as each heart beat.  It was strange and extremely exciting!

Seeing you move on the ultra sound screen was amazing.  I was 9 weeks and my auntie was giving the ultra sound.  You would not stop moving!  I was like, “maybe I should stop working out so much, because my baby is active like mommy!”  You stayed still for about a minute, and it was back to bouncing up and down.  As the weeks go on, I get more and more anxious!

                                     MOMMY LOVES YOU BABY ALEXANDER!